Thursday, December 22, 2011
Finally Graduated
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Mom Would Be Proud
This may not mean much to others, but it does to me because Mom fought so hard for me to be inducted into the National Honor Society in high school. But because we moved my senior year, the new school would not allow me to be inducted because I had not been in attendance there for at least a year. She got "spitting" mad because I had such a high GPA and worked so hard. She knew that it would also help me get an academic scholarship to a good college. Oh well, God has always had a plan for my life and my journey has been enlightening even without having that honor.
I just wish Mom were here to see the fruits of my hard work. She always told me I could be anything I wanted to be, I just had to work hard and finish the task. Well, it's taken my almost 20 years, but by golly, I'm gonna finish the task at hand. Only now, the hard work will be for the benefit of my young family. Having an honor such as this on my resume, will help me to get a better paying job and/or promotion. It's funny that corporate America has to see a piece of paper stating that you're smart rather than actually seeing your intelligence every day.
They won't even consider me for the job in Denver because I haven't finished my degree. Forget that I've worked 20 years doing this and I'm well-qualified for the job, they need to see that piece of paper that says I am a college graduate and worth their promoting. Go figure.
Well, if I can make it past this class and research paper, I'll have 5 classes left before I graduate. Hopefully next year!!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
My Brother, Citizen Soldier
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Remembering Loved Ones
My thoughts have turned to my precious mother-in-law and the loss of hearing stories about Randy when he was a little boy. The stories of how much she loved him and Jodi and how different they were. Stories only a mom could remember. My heart hurts because my sweet little boys will not get to know her and hear her words of wisdom in dealing with the ladies. She raised Randy to love and respect women. She raised him to put others before himself and to give generously and to love unconditionally. I thank God for her every day because she blessed me in the way she raised her son, my wonderful husband. My heart hurts for Randy because he and his mom were so close. They were 2 peas in a pod. Both artistic and tender-hearted, quiet but full of wisdom and grace. Mary Jane was such a free spirit. She loved life and experiencing new things. She loved to send special gifts on birthdays or just because. She had a way of reading people and knowing what they would like. Randy got this trait from her and for that I am greatful because it has helped me to not be so anal and "go with the flow". Old habits die hard, but I'm trying. Hey, he's gotten me to eat Chinese food!
The most recent loss was that of my mom. It's hard to believe she's been gone a year. Life does go on and we learn to deal with our grief, but it's never an easy task. I missed Mom calling me on my bday this year and singing off key to me. She would do it just to get a laugh. It's hard when you don't have anyone to call when your boys are sick and you don't have a clue what to do. It's hard when you're so tired and stressed and in pain and nobody understands. Mom always did and she would always pray with me and tell me "everthing will be alright, baby. God is in control." I wish I had a recording of her voice saying those words to me so I could just push play when I'm feeling tired and stressed. I wish I could just curl up next to her and have her sing to me and play with my hair like she used to when I was little. Grief is a funny thing. It can reduce you to a puddle of tears one moment and the next, you'll be laughing uncontrollably at some silly memory. My boys didn't get to spend near enough time with her and it hurts that they won't have more memories of her.
She won't get to see her son off to serve his country. She was so proud of Stephen's choice to join the Texas Army National Guard. She was so proud of all of us. When we hurt, she hurt. What's that old saying, "you're only as happy as your saddest child." She celebrated our successes and always wanted more for us than she had - that's what moms do.
"They" say time heals all wounds. I don't think time will heal the hurt of losing a loved one, it might lessen as time goes by, but it will never be completely healed. There are so many firsts and special occasions that will not be shared with them. That is the hurt I feel for my boys. They've lost both of their grandmothers. Grandma's are supposed to be the ones to spoil them when mom and dad are not around and bake cookies with them and make special gifts for them and a whole host of other "special" things. I don't wish for them to be back in this world for me because I know they are in a much better place. But, oh how I long for my boys to be able to have these special memories with their grandmas. Kids need their grandparents around to tell them stories of yester-year and to teach them the Word (along w/their parents) and to share their wisdom and insight into the world we live in. I remember my dad's mom teaching me how to make her "special" fried chicken. We didn't get to see my dad's parents often, but when we did, it meant the world to me. I loved hearing her say, "I'm so glad to see you, baby doll. Granny's got your favorite dinner cooking." She said it to all of us, but it made each of us feel special all the same. I loved her hugs and watching her go through her nightly routine. She always cleaned her face with Ponds cold creme. I love that smell.
It's truly amazing the things you remember when loved ones have gone. I wonder what my boys will remember about Nana and Grandma?
My prayer is that we all remember that life is short. Outside our relationship with God, family is the most important thing. The one thing that has pierced my heart since losing our loved ones, is that you cannot replace a loved one once they're gone so spend all the time you can with those you have left. The only guilt I feel is that we let lack of money keep us from visiting our loved ones more often. We lost out on special memories not only for us, but for our boys.
May the comfort and peace that passes all understanding be with you and your loved ones. May God bless you richly with family and friends that love you unconditionally. May your home be a destination and not a stop along the way. Be intentional in all your relationships. Share Jesus. Share Love. Share Yourself.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Eagles Soccer


We're just glad he's found some type of physical activity he likes. It's hard prying him away from the computer and books.Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Ethan - Our Soon-to-be 3rd Grader

Front Row, lst on left
I'll try to remember to do this more often.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Jeremiah's Tball Team

Jeremiah is on the bottom row, 2nd from right.
I don't have any more pics on my USB...the rest are on my computer. I'll put a cute video up later.
Friday, January 2, 2009
Christmas
They boys had a wonderful Christmas. We don't do Santa at our house, but we've started our own tradition where Randy & I give the boys each 3 gifts to symbolize the 3 gifts the wise men gave Jesus. They get more presents from family, so believe me, they're not missing out on anything.
This year a friend of mine told me about The Jesse Tree. She made us one and we started it the day after Thanksgiving. You make a huge Christmas tree out of felt material and then in a notebook, you have bible stories that lead to the birth of Christ, with a symbol for each story. You read one story a day until Christmas and put that symbol on the tree. We had a great time reading all the stories. Jeremiah couldn't sit still long enough to read through a story, but he enjoyed putting the symbols on the tree. I will take another completed picture and upload it later. Here's a link that tells how to make the tree.
http://www.crivoice.org/jesse.html
My family's first Christmas with Mom was different. We just had snack foods and did a chinese gift exchange for the adults. We normally draw names since there are so many of us, but we wanted to do something fun this year...to take our minds off Mom not being there, I suppose.
I think my dad has the most fun of all. He had all the grandchildren gather around him. For those that don't know my dad, this is not like him at all. I think they all thought he was gonna give them a "talking to" about being thankful or something. Then, he took out his wallet and handled out $10 bills to each child. You should've seen their eyes. It was like they had won the lottery or something. It was so much fun. None of us knew he was gonna do that and didn't even expect him to do anything. Of course, the money was burning holes in our boys' pockets, but we made them wait and decide if they wanted to save it for something really special or find something now. They chose to go to WalMart and buy more Hot Wheels cars. I think we've got some cars fanatics on our hands. We're gonna need a separate room for all the cars they've collected.
We had the boys clean their toy box and pick items they would like to donate to the Christian charity store. At first, it was hard for them to let go of their stuff, but we reminded them that there are children out there that don't have 1 Hot Wheels car, much less the dozens they have. They're beginning to get it.
Well, another Christmas is behind us and the hope for a brighter new year is upon us. We pray that all our loved ones know how much we love them and appreciate the support they've given us during the past couple of years. We honestly don't know what we would've done with you in our lives.
Happy New Year!!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Clara Ellen Wilkinson Merrill
Mom is holding me and my youngest brother is in her tummy.
My mom was born September 19, 1943 in a small town in southeast Texas, Honey Island. Her parents did not have a ton of money. In fact, they had very little money at all. My grandfather died when Mom was only 11, so I never got to meet him or my grandmother because she died the year before I was born, in 1971. From the stories Mom told, they were both very special people. They taught Mom about Jesus and how to work hard and study. She passed those teachings on to her 7 children as well.
e for her family. She had such a bright mind and wanted to be a lawyer when she graduated high school. But, she met my Dad that summer, fell in love, and got married and started a family. I asked Mom if she ever regretted not going to college and she said, "Not one day! If I had, I wouldn't have had all my children and might live wouldn't have been filled with such joy." It was later, after all of us were born, that she decided to go to nursing school. I think she was almost finished when she got sick and had to have surgery. After that, she didn't go back. Mom was a good nurse...she had 7 kids to practice on and believe me, there was always some kind of illness in our house.
n the car and help Mom unload and set up for her shows. I was always shy, so I didn't participate, but stayed in the background while she did her thing. I guess I get my salesmanship skills from Mom because whenever there was a fundraiser at school, I was always one of the top sellers in my class. The nights when her parties were close to home, I would stay and make dinner for Dad and my little brother.
otions that Satan uses to keep us separated from the joy and blessings God has for us.Thursday, December 4, 2008
Fall Fun
A little bit older, but we're still one cute couple!!
Our two little tree climbing monkeys.
Isn't this the cutest picture you've ever seen. Such a beautiful smile!!
Here is our rambunctious little leaf thrower! I think he was sliding in to home plate here.
Here they are burying Daddy in the leaves. What fun we had!
I think they were trying to climb the tree here, but with little success.
Ethan had so much fun climbing ALL the trees in the park!
JT wouldn't sit still long enough for us to take many pictures of him. So, here he is playing with a stick.
I think Ethan liked being up high in the tree and hiding behind the leaves.
I love this picture of Randy & the boys walking along the path.
I will do a tribute to mom soon. I have some great pictures of when she was young.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Ethan's 2008 School Picture
He's been doing very well in his classes. He got straight A's the first six weeks. Not sure how he will do this six weeks. He's had a rough time since Nana passed and his grades have dropped a bit.
Please send up some prayers for him to be at peace. He keeps asking us if we're going to die too. If Grandpa and PopPop are next. He's just feeling vulnerable and sad. He's been asking to visit his friends from his old school in Zellars too. It's hard sometimes for kids to adjust to change, but he'll be alright.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Ethan's 7th Birthday
This is a picture of Ethan getting ready to eat his chocolate chip cookie cake. He's not a fan of regular cake...who does this kid belong to anyway.All of his Sunday School friends and friends from school had a fun time bowling. They all bowled great...I was very impressed.
JT loves anything sweet and he surely loved this sweet treat. I think he was beginning to get tired though from all the excitement.Below is the video of everyone singing "Happy Birthday".
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Trip to Montana
al Park. Ethan completed the Junior Ranger program and got a badge. They gave us a worksheet to complete while we traveled the road through Yellowstone. We had to stop at most all the attractions along the way because he had to tell things about each. Mom and Dad had to help with this one because he and JT fell asleep at one point.
of crowds. We saw a bunch of animals, mainly bison, which is NOT the same as buffalo. The boys did like seeing these huge animals along the road side. We even got caught in a bison traffic jam. There were about 3 or 4 trying to cross a bridge and they were just taking their sweet time in both lanes of the bridge. I did not like being stranded on this bridge that was several hundred feet above this huge and rapidly flower river below. The best part though was the hippie lady in the travel trailer blowing kisses to the bison as they passed saying, "I love you." Quite amazing to watch.Of course, what's a trip to Yellowstone without going to visit Old Faithful. We got to see it go off twice while we were there. It went off right as we arrived, but we didn't get to see the whole "show" so we stayed and ate lunch and then visited the gift shop while we waited for the next scheduled eruption. The Rangers said that the timing has been off since an earthquake a few years ago. It was about 90 minutes or so between the two eruptions.
Randy painted them a landscape of Lake McDonald, which is at Glacier National Park (northern MT). It is a beautiful painting. We had a scripture etched on a plate and attached to the frame. "My Lord, O Lord, how majestic is your name."
- Aspiration
- Devotion
- Sincerety
- Faith
- Surrender
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Ethan's New Glasses
Monday, August 25, 2008
Ethan Started 2nd Grade
started 2nd grade at his new school today. We got to tour the school and meet his teacher last Friday, so I think that helped to alleviate some of his nerves, but not all. He was very excited over the weekend and was counting the days til he got to go to school. Oh, to be young again and love to learn!!I dropped him off this morning and waited wit
h him until the bell rang for classes to begin. Here are some of the pictures from this morning. Doesn't his new haircut look so cute!! He's lost another tooth too!! He's got 3 more that are really loose. He picked out his new backpack too. Speed Racer! He wanted to bring his lunch to school this year so he got a Speed Racer lunch box that matches the backpack.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Welcome to our family blog!!
Check out our beautiful family. Randy has been getting some freelance graphic design jobs from a realtor in Plano. He loves creating new branding for people. I love watching his ideas come to fruition. God has really given him an awesome talent. One of my former co-workers wants him to come up with a painting for his sister's birthday. He's going to be doing a painting for our pastor's birthday and my mom's 65th birthday. He's going to be a very busy man!!
Ethan will be starting the 2nd grade next Monday, August 25th. He's very excited about getting back to school, but nervous about the new school and not knowing anybody. He's so outgoing so I don't think he'll have any trouble making new friends. He's my little peacemaker. He was bullied in both kinder and first and somehow managed to turn his tormentors into best friends!! What a sweet spirit the Father has given him. Now, if he would just use that gift in his relationship with Jeremiah!! Brothers! Boys!! We took him in for his 7 year check up last Friday and was told he has 20/40 vision and to take him to an eye doctor. He went today and he's nearsighted with a slight astigmatism, like me. He picked out his own frames and since his favorite color is red, he picked out red frames. A little girl in the office said they looked great, so I'll go with that. I'll send a picture next week after we get them back.
Well, we've been potty training Jeremiah for the past couple of weeks and it's been very interesting. At first, he had many accidents with No 1. He's pretty much conquered that, except at night. It's No 2 we're having troubles with. Moms, if you've got any suggestions, please share. I have never seen a child act this way when he needed to go No 2. He will run around holding his britches and doing something similar to the "peepee dance". We've titled this new movement the "poopoo dance", sorry but he's a 3 year old. He will then proceed to shout, I need to lay down, I need to lay down. Mommy/Daddy/Ethan, rub my tummy. After this going on for a few seconds, we try to coax him into the bathroom, which always results in a huge dramatic production that could rival any Broadway production. (I'm not really sure where this gene came from!!) The child has an amazing spincter muscle because we do this routine for about an hour or more some days before he will actually relax enough to go in the potty. Afterwards, we celebrate and remind him that he will always feel better once he's done. So, next time you think it will be easier, no way, not with this child! We are at our wits end.
Since we've moved into the new apartment, both boys love to go to the pool and swim. Ethan has become a little fish (I think the swim gene comes from both sides of the gene pool). Jeremiah, not so much. We can't get him off the steps that lead into the water. He has, on ocassion, ducked his head under the water, so that's an improvement. They both have nice tans, with white bottoms...so cute!! Could we have a little Michael Phelps in our midst...stay tuned.
I will be starting classes again next week as well. Thankfully, I will be able to take both classes online, which will allow for more time with the family and I won't have to leave work early, which has always seemed to cause a little friction with some people.
That's pretty much what we've been doing lately and what's coming up.
Have a great day!






